I know it’s been a while since I’ve posted but, I’ve been struggling through some things so I think now is the time to let it all out…
Struggles. I’ve been struggling with the fact that I have PCOS and haven’t been on birth control and can’t get pregnant. I’ve been struggling with the fact that others around me are getting pregnant left and right it seems. But, I’ve found strength in these struggles, I’ve found strength in God to help me.
Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thin own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him and he shall direct thy paths. “
This verse has helped me realize that in everything I do consult with God about it. Pray about it. In these two verses God has shown me that I need to lean on Him and His timing for a child. To me He says “Don’t get discourage about becoming a mom because I have all these plans worked out for you already. Trust and lean on me even if you don’t have understanding of why it isn’t happening for you. I’m the one in control.”
I know I will probably get down and out still about not being a mom right now but, like a hymn I know say “Learning to Lean” well I’m learning to lean of Jesus. Patiently and faithfully, I’m waiting ♥